my entire life is just a test to see if i’ll commit suicide or homicide first
I know I shouldn’t do it.
Like, I really shouldn’t.
It’s not who I am anymore.
I’m trying to change.
But…I want to be numb to all this pain.
Time for some ketamine.
I seriously need help. Really badly. I’m just getting worse and worse and I need to work through all my problems, but I can’t do it by myself. The longer I go without fixing these things, the more dangerous that I am to myself